I want to take this opportunity to tell you how much I love you. I have loved you from the moment that I found out your daddy and I were going to be blessed with your presence in our lives. How is this possible to love you before I met you, you ask? Because you were already a part of my very soul, and I knew you were going to be something special.
I didn't know just how special you would be though. I was never really a "gaga-over-babies" type of person, but baby, you changed me. From the very first time I saw you, I knew my life would never be the same. You had my heart from the very first glance, and with the sound of your very first cry, I wanted to protect you and make it all better.
I remember when you were a few hours old, I spent hours just watching you sleep and trying to take a mental picture that I could cherish forever. A year later, I still love to watch you sleep and revel in the joy that you have brought into my life.
Now as you get older and start to explore your independence, there are going to be times when I may get upset or angry at you. You won't be able to understand it at that time, but know that I am angry because I want to protect you and I am looking out for your best interest. I want you to live life to the fullest and flourish, but I don't want you to make some of the mistakes that I have made. As you struggle to gain more and more independence, I am going to struggle with having to "let my baby go." That won't be easy for me, and I will need you to have some patience as we prepare for you to spread your wings and soar.
I do want you to know that no matter what, I will be proud of you. You may do something that disappoints me temporarily, but these feelings will surface because I want the best for you. It will be more painful for me to see you hurt or take a wrong turn in life than it will be for you. Disappointment is fleeting, but my love for you is endless. You are my finest accomplishment in life and you will always make your mommy proud.
Now I want you to pay attention and listen very carefully to what I am about to tell you. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL JUST AS YOU ARE. Please learn this saying and keep it in your back pocket for whenever you are feeling a little down about yourself - "Why waste a second not loving who you are? Those little imperfections make you beautiful, lovable and valuable. They show your personality inside your heart, reflecting who you are." Natasha Bedingfield sings these lyrics in her song "Freckles" and my dear, I am going to play this song for you a lot to remind you that there is beauty in all of us and when the inner beauty shines through, that is when you are beautiful on the outside, too. A glamorous cover model can be an ugly person if all they have is airbrushed looks that are skin deep. If you don't believe me, think about the people that are the most attractive to you in your life and think about why you feel that way about them. Chances are it is because they are kind, thoughtful and caring.
You are perfect - everything about you. You are sweet, thoughtful and lovable. Eventually you will be interested in boys. In fact, your daycare teacher told me you were trying to plant a big smooch on your little buddy at school, and I have the picture to prove it. So perhaps we are going to have to deal with boys a little sooner than I would like. But if these boys do not appreciate you or see the same perfect person that I see, then they are not good enough for you. Never settle, baby girl-you deserve the best. Truthfully, no one will ever be good enough for my little girl. You deserve to be treated like a princess, and I hope you meet a caring man like your daddy.
I may love your daddy, but you have my heart. You have turned my life upside down, but this new view is more breathtaking than I could have imagined.
I love you little one,